Sunday, 29 July 2012

tomorrow landd hehe

oh you gottaa come and party... be free... in extacy ... in that energyyy..... let yourselves be free... come party with meee!!!!!!!!!! ha ha oh it will start again soon

Saturday, 28 July 2012


Hey they made me out to be such a bad person and made up so many lies!! I made this video last year.. you might as well see it now too. No point hiding it away any more

Thursday, 26 July 2012

hard life

life is hard when you cant love your child like you want to everyday. My daughter deserves all my unconditional love and protection I have for her. I just find it completely unbelievable that these people dont seem to value what we have. Our unbreakble bond. We will always pine for eachother. you could never find a sibling relationship that is closer. But we are very limited within our environment. It is like we are kept in a cage and gourped at ... the staff are nice in the centre. Though me, mum and Gracie spend every week just couped up in a room... 3 hours a week is all I get with my daughter. Because I love her that much that I ran away with Gracie, so that me and Gracie could be together. My love for my daughter and our bond can never be broken. You cannot force my child to forget me. You are just depriving my daughter. All day will she wish I was with her.. all day and every day you deprive my child by keeping her away from me...

The thing is that they dont even seem to notice or care... or both!!!

or Gracie would be with me... If they really cared for my daughter in every possible way like only I do, then they would be doing everything to keep me and Gracie together. They would be saying look what this mummy has to offer her daughter and look how much she loves her... instead they say we are still going to keep that child away from her mummy... punish the child... all the time... that is what you do to my baby girl... you deprive her... anyway... I wont go away and I wont shut up.... here is the beginning of an interview I did with Nathan a few months ago...

Monday, 23 July 2012

In Shock

To be honest I have been in shock since January 28th 2011. The day the police pinned me to the floor and threw me in a mental home. I felt like I was in some sort of a nightmare. Oh the pain in my heart from being seperated from my daughter. I was just crying constantly for days. I was that bad they had to give me 3 riazipans when usually they give patients half. That was just so I could function without crying constantly. I am some what out of the shock now, I have come to terms with this is how the system treats us.

I was shocked because I thought they would be humane and have respect for me. I have always been an excellent mummy, I was still sleeping in the same bed as my daughter when they seperated us. That pain, I know what it means when people say they are heart broken.

I was silly for listening to that man but he was telling me really scary things and I went to the police for help. They should of given me some help and not locked me away!!!

I am an educated woman with good morrals. Besides I got over the dellusion last year and have learnt many lessons. There is no reason why I cant have Gracie now. There was never any reason for them to do what they did to me.

Gracie would never ever everrr come to any harm while being in my care and that is a fact!! she is my Angel. She never did come to any harm but they talk about emotional Risk!!! the amount of damage they have done to my Angel on so many levels is unbelievable. I could not even begin to express what they have done. Everything I spent my time protecting Gracie from, they put her through. They destroyed everything, luckily my Angel has been able to see me a bit and still gets my guidance and love and she is so strong. I am so proud of my Angel she has been through so much and handled it all so bravely....

She deserves to be with her mummy, that is all she ever wants... please people sign my petition:
thank you soo much x

Tuesday, 17 July 2012

If everything was not just so black and white

I feel we are coming to the end of our hell. I dont know how it is going to happen and when, though I do feel it is coming sooon.. as it is too painful for both me and Gracie and destructive and depriving. We have this deap love, bond and connection and we pine for eachother all the time. I can feel it in her.. She knows she will never meet anyone as great as me. That is what Gracie thinks of me!! and there is no reason why she should not.

Hey it would be different if I was a bad mother, but I am not and I have made bad choices and ran away back in january 28th last year and I came back to uk from Ireland and France and I have not left the country since. I have got angry and upset in the past because they are constantly depriving my child of the best life she could ever dream of... and she knows that and she feels that... and she feels like she is just deprived and being treated unfairly and she does not understand why... but she just knows that she is the only child in the class that does not ever get to see her special mummy walk into that nursery...

no wonder she never listens much for my voice hey... she listens all the time.. she always hopes maybe one day mummy will walk in... but mummy is not even allowed to know what nursery Gracie goes to or were she lives... mummy is treated like a baddy... when mummy is the goody and wants to help the world... so why is everyone calling me bad and keeping my child from me... when I have no desire to leave and go anywhere... there is nothing dangerous going on... there is no need for them to keep us seperated...

I will be honest... Gracie was put into care because I was stupid and sent the social services an email saying about love being stronger and that they are energy steeling from me and then they went and put Gracie into care because I offered them money for my daughter.... It was half a joke... but wouldnt any good parent give anything for their child??? even their last pennies?? is that a reason to put my child in foster care????

Why do they want to deprive us?... do you think they secretly energy steel on purpose?? I think people are puppets!! they are just controlled themselves it seems... to just think and believe what they choose and not what is real!! They are also control and power mad!! they also fear for their word being tampered with!! why is this system allowed to be run like this, in a country of democracy ?????

oh its insane man!!! do people just not see how messed up our system is when dealing with people and families!!!!

When I made the video , they dont really care about us, it was around the time of the riots... and it did get me angry at them even more.... because I was one of those people who was being misstreated in every way by the system... I was a member of the publice being abused by authorities and there are many people being abused!!!!

yes you just want us to shut up and put up with it!! its not fair what they did to me... I also made black and white by micheal jackson too... I might as well make it visible to see anyways... I did most of my videos last year as you can see... cos my hair is different... i am really blond now..